Sorry it has been so long. Life has been busy.
To answer some of your questions, My husband is above average. His cock is as large as any other men I have seen. That's not an issue.
As I read your comments and as I have had an experience, I have realized I am deeply in love with my husband, but I am starting to feel old and unattractive. Hearing I am beautiful from my husband is great but to hear it and experience it from someone else lights a new fire.