I'm 47, I've been married to my husband for almost 30 years. We are both very conservative, involved in church, etc.. My husband was my first sexual experience ever. I have never been with or even came close to being with anyone else. Now that our kids are grown and moved out we have been trying new things like nudism. Seeing all of the different sizes and types of penises has really been making me think more and more how I would really like to experience another man inside me. I recently bought a large reel feel dildo, my husband has no idea. I couldn't believe how good it felt. I was so embarrassed and ashamed by how I fantasized it was another man inside of me. I can't stop thinking about it. We spent last weekend at a nudist resort, I kept staring at other men. I had to excuse myself to the bathroom a few times to clean myself because my juices were running down my leg.
I deeply love my husband and don't want to hurt him in any way, but I can't stop fantasizing about experiencing another man. I'm not looking for offers from perverts. I'm looking for real advise regarding how to talk to my husband or if I should even bring it up.