Yes absolutely I am... despite what you are saying I'm finding it impossible to do anything but think of the worst case scenarios and how far he might take things... he clearly a) know me somehow and b) knows he got the upper hand and is in control. I've never had this, despite what I did, I was still in control. Now I have to face to the realities... he might well ask for more than a wank? he might want to take pictures that include my face? he could send those pictures to others in that Telegram group, and that's not even beginning on some of the more worst case scenarios