Things going downhill

Been married to my wife for 13 years, over that time we have dabbled in the hot wife lifestyle a few times, she has had 11 partners besides me while we have been married. I’ve always asked her details, and she used to be fairly decent at telling me details and what happened. I’ve begged her for pics while she was out, and she never produced any. Recently, I found out that most of the guys she meets don’t know that I am a willing participant in this, and they think she is just cheating on her husband and that I’m clueless. She went on an overnight trip with her new fuck buddy this last Sunday, and when pressed, all she said was “we had sex a bunch”……I’ve hinted around and outright asked several times now for details, and she just won’t say anything. So tonight while I’m working, I finally lost my ...... and told her I don’t care about any of it anymore, I don’t want to hear about who she is talking to, who she is fucking, or any of it. I’m just fed up that I’m not even part of it anymore. Worst part is, is she is so jealous I am not allowed to even text any females (even mutual friends that we have) , and I’m constantly under her watchful eye. I’m afraid things are going downhill in a fast way. Just had to get that all off my chest.
Couple of thoughts. First, enjoying the cuckold life does not mean that the guy wants freedom to have sex with other women. The enjoyment is about seeing your own wife having sex with other men, or at the very least having her tell you all about it. Your wife's activity is more like cheating, which denies you the pleasure of cuckoldry. Second thought is about you finding another woman to sort of even things up. I bet that if you confide in a good female friend that your wife is cheating, that you are hurt and that you need someone for comfort, she will want sex with you. You shouldn't have any difficulty finding a woman who wants to comfort you with sex.