I’m not sure I understand the question. I have had an interest in sex since I first discovered that playing with myself could lead to an amazingly good feeling. The hunt was on. My first sex was with animals, farm boy here. My first real sex was in high school with a girl in a car. Many times. My first with a guy , I was 25 , discovered what went on in adult bookstores. To that point , I considered myself heterosexual. After that , I discovered getting blow jobs from other guys, which led to me trying out being the active cock sucker. I found I enjoyed it very much. This while I am married and beginning a family . Sex on the down/ low. Later I tried topping , active anal sex with some younger guys which in turn led to submitting to a good ass pounding. All the while , the occasional hookup with black males was a super turn on. I had tried letting a few guys fuck me but it left me kind of wanting. I knew it would be different if I could just find a black male really well hung. One night after bowling league I stopped in at the at the adult book store. Booth doors are left slightly ajar by those cruising.There was the most incredibly good looking , absurdly hung black man watching a movie stroking his cock. I looked in , he nodded his head emphatically yes, so I entered. His cock , I have large hands, I grasped it , it was like holding a tall boy beer, my hand only went half way around. When I went in my hope was to perform a quick blo n go. This dick , would not go in my mouth . I tried. The head of his cock was just slightly smaller than a baseball . We whispered, he asked me what I wanted to do. In these places, no one is shy, straight to the point. I said what I really would like is to get fucked. Again , and at the time thought odd, he nodded his head emphatically. So I continued, look I am from aways out of town, do you have a place to go ? He said just down the street, next to the Stadiums. Next I said , I know the cashier up front, whom I recognized , I went to school with him, I said you leave first . I described my car and said I’d follow him. Well that night at his apartment, after about a half bottle of Vaseline Intensive Care lotion. About thirty minutes of determination , gentle , but insistent, the head went in, after that it was the most amazing feeling, I have ever known in sex . I was a good looking guy, with a nice bod.and I have been with some pretty amazing women . But he took me , and to top it off on silk sheets, being stretched to the limit , I talked about the head , the length must have been at least 12” and he was like a 5 lb summer sausage thick all the way. I was hooked. I don’t fuck so much anymore, only if I find a really big thickly hung guy. I still enjoy sucking cock. If you enjoy the the feel of ejaculation in your mouth and the taste of a man’s load , that’s when you find out you really love it. Just to suck on one I don’t think makes you bisexual. Just doing your wife a favor. Imo