I would like to know what I should do. My girlfriend has a lover on the side. She has sex with him 2 times per week and it is quite obvious she prefers to do it with him. We also still have sex but I am beginning to accept that perhaps I need to surrender a privilege. She has denied me a couple of times after she let him have her but I am not ready to be denied for a long time. What is the middle ground? The idea has come to mind that I should perhaps start wearing condoms. Should I and what is the reasoning behind this? She's taking the pill so technically there is no need. Would it lessen the feeling of sloppy seconds? Would it help me to last longer? I can't get myself to try it even a single time so I think I need to raise the subject with her. What do I tell her?
I think that the matter about condoms you are questioning yourself about is much broader then the use of condoms. I also did get quite upset and mentally disturbed in having to use condoms, then not because I got a vasectomy and then again to have use condoms although I was snipped.
The broader picture is that she prefers to have sex with her boyfriend then with you. Most women will refuse them to their husband in a progresssive way starting with less sex with all kind of diferent reasons beginning with themselves being tired, period, headache etc.. Becaus these reasons do not work all the time they will start to focus on other reasons not to have sex, matters around birthcontrol, premature ejaculation, not being good enough with your cock and enhancing it that again you were not good enough. This wil also give her the perfect reason to have a lover and lessen her feeling of guilt towards you because you are not good enough.
My journey was over a period of 5 years:
When she had her first lover:
- less sex
- then the less sex was less and less PIV sex
- she gave me handjobs ad even bought me a fleshlight..
When she was done with her first lover everything was as almost as before for some time but:
- because we were having not so much sex she wanted me to use condoms to stop birthcontrol for her health
- she then sugested me to get a vasectomy and that in that way we could have sex again without condoms, so I got snipped
She then had her second lover and:
- after some weeks she was seeing him, and I did not know it, she then wanted me to use condoms again when PIV because she thougt it was cleaner
(but in fact she was disgusted to have my semen in her) and she used birthcontrol without me knowing because she though wanted his semen in her..
- in the mean time she focused on the PE and ED that I got from all that fuss with her boyfriend, condoms etc...
So in the end I became quite incompetent in bed and our cuckold dynamic grew more and more and not to get fucked up in he head you try to
accept it and start looking how to find a balance in the dynamic to live togeteher with a wife that denies you and has a lover on the side. Chastity
and a chastity device is quite a good sollution because it makes you own state clear.
And this is quite possibele if you have enough compensation in this dynamic: cuddling, alternative ways of sex, and you wife/girlfriend becomes you best friend bacause the comepting sexcomonent is not there anymore.
A lot of woman like two types of men: one for the adventure and sex and another one she can rely on, be safe, that cares for her, looks aftre the children etc..
The cuckold dynamic is possible but not easy to get it balanced..