I agree with most of that. Sucking another man’s cock for him is more mentally stimulating for me, and I completely agree with your statement that is is both submissive, but also in control at the same time.
Feeling a man’s cock swell up at the last second and then begin to involuntarily twitch and throb as his warm cum flood my mouth is definitely the ultimate compliment for a job well done and hearing him grunt and moan and then breathing heavy as his head is spinning immediately after he cums is quite a turn on for me. It gives me a feeling of pride knowing that I WAS THE REASON for causing his pleasure.
I was helplessly hooked after sucking my 4th or 5th cock. That was many years ago now, I have lost count of how many loads I have swallowed by now. The intense mental feeling of excitement and pleasure has never gone away. Feeling a man’s cock in my mouth and making him spurt that warm seed on my tongue is still just as satisfying today as it was when I first started.
The only difference now is that I have accepted the fact that I enjoy the act of sucking cock, so it is much easier now to simply drop to my knees whenever I meet someone with a nice cock that simply needs to be serviced.
I have become a cock sucking slut, and once I was able to wrap my head around that fact, the easier it is to simply just stop overthinking it and start enjoying the benefits of pleasuring a man with my mouth and making him cum.