Wednesday evening after dinner.
ME: "Are you ready to talk?"
HER: "Not really, but let's get it over with."
ME: "I'm not sure I like the way this is going."
HER: "In what way?"
ME: "I think in every way."
HER: "That's a pretty wide brush stroke, don't ya think?"
ME: "Yeah, it is, but there are so many things that I'm disturbed about. And I think I've been pretty accommodating. I haven't said no yet."
HER: "No you haven't yet, but it sounds like you're going to now. I want to remind you that you wanted this, YOU wanted this. You wanted your wife to be a whore and now she is."
ME: "Why do you keep throwing that up in my face?"
HER: "I never want you to forget."
ME: "Truely I won't."
HER: "You're right, you won't, I won't let you forget."
ME: "I sure hope you'll stop reminding me."
HER: "Hope is good, it's an admirable goal."
ME: "Now you're being snarky."
HER: "Yeah I guess I am. What's on your mind"
ME: "Jeez where do I start?"
HER: "Duh, at the beginning."
ME: "I'm disturbed that you are indiscriminate."
HER: "It's only cock. That's what I'm after and I don't care whose it is."
ME: "That's what I mean. AND EVERYDAY."
HER: "If you could have sex everyday wouldn't you?"
ME: "Of course I would."
HER: "So why should it be different for me."
ME: "So many different men."
HER: "Would you rather I find a regular to fuck over and over."
ME: "Like the bartender."
HER: "Yup like the bartender, or you. But you can't, can you?"
ME: "That's cruel."
HER: "Sorry."
ME: "And in the house too, what are the neighbors gonna think?"
HER: "Yes in the house. We can't afford a motel everyday, I can't drive too well after dark. So yes, the house. The college guys in their dorm would raise so many eyebrows. Of course I've used a car, picnic table and Distillery store room. But those were mere diversions. As far as the neighbors I have a simple answer, I'm giving haircuts, it's a perfect ruse for many men, short visits."
ME: "And this bareback thing."
HER: "It's what I like, you wouldn't want me to do something I didn't like would you?"
ME: "And what's up with Gayle."
HER: "She's my dear friend, my compatriot, my whore in arms. You should thank her, she's the one who convinced me to acquiesce to your wishes."
ME: "Are you playing with Gayle?"
HER: "What's the difference if I am! Anyway I need some secrets."
ME: "It's possible that the bartender's pimping you out, that's he's getting paid for your services and you're giving it away for free."
HER: "Does that mean you want me to prostitute myself as well?"
ME: "No, I'm just sayin'' that's all."
HER: "I don't care if he is, I'm getting what I want and that's what I care about"
ME: "You hate being watched and now you're talking about a gangbang or group thing, they won't be wearing blindfolds you know."
HER: "My attitude has changed towards that, I'm not only getting used to it but kinda enjoying being a performer."
ME: "And you still won't let me take pictures. I really want to, you know."
HER: "Yes I know you told me that many times. That's something there hasn't been an attitude change towards. But one never knows what the future will bring."
ME: "You never ask me to hook you up, like I did the 1st time."
HER: "I don't need you to, I've become quite self-sufficient as I was when I was younger. How else do you think I had so may partners, by luck?"
ME: "I wish we had started this years ago like I wanted."
HER: "So do I, so do I. And I'm sorry I cut you off, it was a terrible mistake and I wish I could go back in time and correct that major error."
ME: "We're on the same page."
HER: "I guess we're done talking. Just so you know, I know your concerns: You don't like that I'm so indiscriminate with who I have sex with, you don't like that I'm having sex so frequently, you don't like what the neighbors might think, You don't like that I may be playing with Gayle, you still don't like that I cut you off, you do like that you're finally having good sex with me, you are enjoying sloppy seconds (so am I by the way), you are enjoying my keeping you involved and you are enjoying watching me have sex with other men. You question my gangbang and group motives, you want to take pictures and you want to hook me up like the bartender. Do I have it all?"
ME: "Yup, you go it all covered."
HER: "Point blank question. Do you want me to stop?"
ME: "No!
HER: "OK lets not talk about it again. Let's eat dinner and then play."
She sure took the wind out of my sails, so to speak.
