My wife and I have been together for over a decade, middle aged, in good shape/good looking and have a good sex life (would be great but we had kids and though I love them with all my heart, they crush your sex life).
My wife is 5’3 blonde, with DD breasts and she is fun but we struggled with some stuff early on bc she said she just gets along with guys so much better than girls. She had friends that were guys that she had slept with and acted like it should have been fine. She is also fairly demeaning to me and emasculating. She asked me this weekend when we spoke when she does that? I said you signed us up for Netflix and picked a picture of a monkey face for me and a tiger for you. She laughed and said I almost put the monkey face for me though. I said but you didn’t.
The behavior and wondering if she is cheating over the years brought me to a place for I masturbated thinking of her cheating with this jacked neighbor. It took many years before bringing this up to her and I think it was a surprise bc I am usually more jealous and protective/masculine. I explained that thinking like this came over the course of a decade and reinforced with masturbating. I have brought up cuckolding a few times over the past few years. I even asked if she wanted to have a threesome with another guy which didn’t go very well. I didn’t have a guy in mind which she asked me over and over again. Our talks have gotten better but never progressed to discussed her doing anything.
Over the weekend I asked her if we could fantasize in the bedroom and she said well you know you brought this up before and we had a big argument. She said I know you did a bunch of research and jerked off to this before asking me. She was alluding to the fact that she thinks I want a threesome again but honestly I am only really ready to fantasize together. As we talked, she said what would happen if I got pregnant. When I tried to address that, she said of everything I said that’s what you want to address? I said yeah. I said why are you worried about getting pregnant, we are talking about us just fantasizing in bed. By this time it was 2 am and we had plans in the morning, so we talked but didn’t really address it further.
Of all the talking we have done, this feels like the best chance I’ve ever had for a breakthrough and we are supposed to go over this stuff tonight.
I added the conversation we had over text today but it doesn’t give you much from her bc she works in a place where she can’t really text.
I am thinking of asking jer to tell me a dirty story from her past or something and hold my dick while she tells me. That will let her know that it actually turns me on.