Any other married gay cucks?

I'm 49 from Michigan. Married 15yrs. 5 years ago I told my wife that I was gay leaning. I told her that I loved her, still find her attractive, but wasn't sexually attracted to her because I was only sexually attracted to men.

A month later I introduced her to a coworker and told her I wanted her to enjoy a night of pleasure. This started out journey into the lifestyle
 
I'm 49 from Michigan. Married 15yrs. 5 years ago I told my wife that I was gay leaning. I told her that I loved her, still find her attractive, but wasn't sexually attracted to her because I was only sexually attracted to men.

A month later I introduced her to a coworker and told her I wanted her to enjoy a night of pleasure. This started out journey into the lifestyle
I’m not 100 gay but I told my wife my secrets and now when I get unlocked and rewarded by getting to cum my wife either pegs me with her bbc strapon or she puts on bbc gay porn and degrades and humiliates me while she jerks me off