Wife’s [30] intermittent affairs while we were dating is a turn on for me [33] that has continued growing over the last 5 years. At the time, I was hurt, enraged and humiliated after she admitted to ...... with 3 different guys on separate occasions during a “break” in our relationship during sophomore year of college. Two of the guys she slept with were older seniors while the other was a freshman. I felt beyond embarrassed after our mutual friend group slowly found out. It was rocky for the remaining two years of college but we ended up staying together. The anger/humiliation of her cheating slowly morphed into a turn on of mine for reasons I don’t understand. I have been hesitant to discuss these feelings with her out of embarrassment, but still find myself fantasizing about her with other men in a cuckold dynamic. This past year, I built up the confidence to bring dildos into the bedroom, which she reluctantly (and rarely) uses during sex. This puts me over the top, but I’m hesitant to introduce more/bigger toys that satisfy my fantasy.
Any couples experience a similar journey before finally opening things up? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Any couples experience a similar journey before finally opening things up? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.