When my wife and I were engaged, she started working as a nurse in a hospital. She is very pretty. She was 19 and lovely. The following was completely u known by me until 15 years after the fact when she confessed out of guilt.
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While engaged she was working at a hospital as an RN wking on her BSN. An older man, a doctor, began seducing her as he was always talking to her politely, offering compliments and would discuss pertinent patient information and was always building her ego up. They had lunch together one shift and as they were walking back to the floor there was a staff bathroom in the hallway and as they walked by it he grasped her hand and gently pulled her into the mens room and locked the door. He kissed her. She said she was shocked and offered resistance at first but quickly gave in. She was 19he was 40, she admitted internally she had a crush on him and felt him as a father figure as he had been so complimentary of her and always built her up. She admitted this to me with tears in her eyes that although she did initially resist the kiss. She quickly melted and within minutes she was willingy on her knees sucking his big 40 yo cock. He gently lifted her and turned her around and flipped up her dress. She bent over and grasped the handicap bars as he tugged her panties to her ankles. And before she knew it his stiff 40 year old cock was in her solidly sliding all the way in on the first attempt as her cunt was wet and ready. He quickly pumped his semen into h
my fiancées cunt. She claims she didn’t even have an orgasm - like that was supposed to make me feel better about It. Not sure why I recall her telling me that but it actually pissed me off. I responded somehting like. So you let a 40 year old man cum in your cunt with zero protection in the late 80s when aids was rampant and you not on birth control and bless your heart, You didn’t even have an orgasm ! I told her that made her in my opinion a type of women that I cannot stand a slut. She asked why I would say that as she cried. I told her a regular person would receive sexual pleasure from it, a whore would receive money for it, but I can’t figure out what type of woman you are - either a dumb slut or a stupid slut
Re member, this was unknow to me. I wou.d have never married her. A faithful wife to raise a family in. God centered and God fearing home was what I thought were our agreed on shared goals.
We were 22 yo couple when we married. Both of us had dated for a few years and she was the woman of my dreams. My good faithful Christian wife that God has provided to me to be my faithful bride to begin life with and, raise a family. I stayed true to despite living a time and work environment with many opportunities to cheat. We would disucss things observed in hospitals from time time and I asked how she handles the lecherous doctors as I know they must’ve come onto her as I have witnessed them harassing other nurses. She was always quite convincing in that she stops that type of behavior in its tracks and she does not put up with unwelcome comments etc…. And I believed her. After all, that is how I stopped advances I got from women.
And then D day Or Day of Dicovery. 15 years later she, out of guilt, confesses the indiscretion Which happened right necore we married I was stunned. I quickly accused of more and she confessed to another right after we married as well. I heard all I could handle. WLked out and stayed gone for a few weeks. Began to miss my young boys after a few days so came back home and we talked thru it and we are still together now. Boys are young men at this point. Dealing with that is the hardest thing I’ve ever faced in my life. It changed me as a man. Took something out of me and I feel a part of me is missing to this day. Still feels that after 22 years since D Day. Not the best way to live life but my boys were raised in what was the best home I could make given the circumstances. Most all my family was sick and had passed. In fact my Mom passed away literally two days after my D Day. And the wife had little family as well so needless to say, our support system was poor.
I have asked if there were others which she denies almost vehemently. Even now, after proving I am staying and committed to making it, if I were to inquire about any other infidelities or compromising situations she would vehemently say no, no others. But truthfully, I don’t believe her. Especially after I began to recall certain comments she made sometimes about work and people from work and some events at Christmas parties etc.. where I saw some Doctors make jokes and comments and openly Flirt - of course drinking etc… always involved and while I was faithful in my dealings, I flirted and drank as well and was always cutting up with women I worked with as well. I just never fucked any of them.
I still wonder to this day how many dicks she has had in her cunt or in her mouth or both. It hurts to think of it, but it does make my dick hard at the same time. That is fucked UP. Mental S&M. To mentally loathe and be truly disgusted with something that makes your cock harden and if not careful, can make me leak cum in my trousers.
I will state for the record. I would have never known had she not confessed. Her confession was spurred by a chance incident a few weeks earlier when we were escorting my mother and step father in a hospital hallway for her to receive treatment and we ran into this Doctor that we both knew. I shook his hand and greeted him, my wife hugged him, and we introduced to my Mom And chatted briefly. I thought nothing of it at the time. And the chance meeting must have built up the guilt for her and she confessed. I was devastated. 22 years later, It still has the potential to devastate me mentally if allow my mind to consider the details and wonder about other things I dont know. I cannot allow my base desires to control me. I would be in prison if I did. Honestly, I have been in a mental prison since. Working to get out of it. Not sure what that means. Just trying to discover myself as a whole man. My choices were the right choices for me at the time and I did my best not to let it hurt my children’s lives. They still grew up with some trauma from parents
with a fucked up marriage. I wish it was not that way - but I did the best I could do.
I grew up without a Dad. Didnt want that for my boys. Life is hard and is always a series of choices. Some good some bad.