I am not sure I can explain my sexual desires and where they came from but will try. The most difficult thing for most people on these type sites to understand is that I I was probably in my 40 s before I ever even heard of the Cuckold /Hotwife lifestyle.
I know I fell in love with lingerie, especially suspenders & hose in HS because my first GF I had sex with wore them and I loved the feel and look probably because I knew it was going to lead to sex. We split up after a year and a half because we were starting college and she thought we should date around and get back together after college and get married. What actually happened was I had sex with her for the next 15 years, LOL. I was a college athlete and in the late 60 s and early 70 s there was a lot of "Free Sex".
I married my first wife right after graduation. We had been dating our last two years in school and attended some wild parties and experimented with lots of different things. After marrying we did some wife swapping and swinging. The sex was good but often some drama came with it and took away the fun. We divorced after 10 years.
I dated several women but none seemed interested in any thing except monogamy. I was a bull for several couples before I even had heard the term "Bull" To me I was just partying with some friends. Eventually a friend introduced me to Elaine. They worked together and he suggested I take her ask her out. We hit it off and I really started to fall for her but knew I could not lead a normal married life.
I got Elaine to pose for sexy polaroid pics and she didn't seem to object like some women do. For my birthday she surprised me with some lingerie photos done by a professional she had hired. I was more than pleased with that attitude. After about a year I decided to broach the idea of sharing her. Started with sex talk in the bedroom. While having sex she acted willing saying it might be fun, but nothing ever actually happened. I knew for our relationship to go further I was going to have to press the issue to see if she ! was all talk and no action. I kept telling her to pick out some guy she would like to fuck. I didn't care if it was old lover or friend. She said she could not approach someone about having sex with them if she really loved me. After our first MMF experience I was worried she might feel guilty the nest morning and say never again. I asked her what she thought about everything that happened. She asked me if I had a good time. I assured her I had and she said great. I asked would she do it again and she said probably but it would have to our special secret and we must be discreet.
We tried a few sex parties. They were monthly gatherings of local swingers, held a local hotel or large private residences. I felt comfortable, but Elaine was never really at ease. She experimented with women and said it was ok, but preferred men. We decided after a few parties we liked more one on two or one on three type situations. I got to watch her having guys lick her while I was getting a blowjob and be with other couples and keep switching partners. While she was so willing to do whatever I asked I thought if she felt uncomfortable at those places why go. I think her desire for younger men at the beginning was because she was unsure of her own attractiveness and did not think other men would find her desirable, while younger men might be more willing. I encouraged her to be on the lookout for guys hitting on her as they would probably be more open to threeway sex.
Orgasmsrus, I know I may not have fully answered your question but I guess I knew she had fully embraced the lifestyle when she successfully convinced men to have sex with us without me have to set it up. She became better at being able to tell which guys were interested in her and knew how to seduce them into joining us in bed. Lots of guys want to fuck her but only by themselves. She became very good at letting them sample the goods just enough to make sure they were willing to show.
Please feel free to ask any questions you may have about us and our lifestyle. Guess I should not post this much text without some kind of photo. How about getting ready for a date
