I am unsure of where I sit in terms of what I want.
I love the thought of my wife being used by someone else and humiliation cuckolding. However I am terrified to try as in a previous relationship we had started cuckolding after several adventures we brought in a very sizable BBC which I had encouraged.
After several meetings I would come home and she would be at his house, mostly they sent me videos but in the end she left me for him.
My wife is very submissive to me and I love that but the thought of her with other men and being submissive to them is exactly what I want however I don't want a repeat of the last time
You raise a very real concern not only from a cuckolding relationship but also from any relationship in the swinging lifestyle. I don't know if the fear of losing your partner ever really diminishes when she is shared and given permission to enjoy passion with other men.
My wife and I have always been very open in sharing our thoughts, desires, emotions, concerns, and details with each other from the start. I still vividly recall my wife hooking up with men that are super well endowed, who have money, who are able to bring her to multiple orgasms. I would share with her that I held some jealousy and angst about her wanting the other man and not being satisfied with me. My wife put it into perspective for me one night many years ago. The man was a young doctor, single, and loaded with family money. He arrived in a sports car worth more than our house, and to top it off he had a huge cock and amazing body. My wife worshipped this guy's cock and they joked about my small little stub in comparison. On their fourth night together, he had just finished bringing my wife to amazing orgasm and as she lay on the bed, leaking his load and panting to catch her breath he told her she should leave her job and go with him to Hawaii for a three-month vacation at his families beach estate. He told my wife she would have everything she could dream of including never having to tolerate disappointing sex with a useless tiny cock.
My stomach was in knots, this guy could offer my wife everything I never would be able to. After two more orgasms, the man left and I told my wife she should go and take him up on his offer. My wife replied that while the sex was incredible and breathtaking, maybe the best she has ever had, and the thought of living a dream life was tempting, she would not ever leave me, I remain the one true love of her life.
My wife told me that many of our friends get divorced after having affairs. She explained that if she wanted sex or another man, she could easily have an affair behind my back and that I would never know. She told me she wanted to share her sexual experiences with me and not apart from me. She was right, her job keeps her on the road and while our marriage is open she always chooses to return home to me. She could have 100 different men and I would never know. Some of her trips have her away from home for weeks at a time. She does have sexual needs and will find partners, but she always tells me she is going to meet a guy and will almost always begin a ... session with me so that I can watch.
I guess at the end of the day if you decided to share your wife again or to allow her to cuckold you in a relationship it will need to be based on trust between you both.
