Okay so here goes the next chapter of my hotwife journey.
THE ITCH
Like I said I had extream guilt, and shame for betraying my husband. And at the same time causing his best friend to betray him as well. But after a few weeks things went back to normal and it was a month later I started feeling that kink again. I can only describe it as an itch that needs to be scratched. When I scratch it feels so good and releaving, buy the itch spreads and just itches worss the next time around.
When the shame wore off, I was left with only the thrills once again of exploring another man. Quickly the desires to cheat again started to build but I was trying very hard to resist the desires.
I avoided Alan the next two times we were around. Kept the chat small. At our church on sunday mornings wr have prayer workers who stand at the front and pray with people in need. I am one of those workers. When it came to prayer time I was shocked to see Alan approaching me. I didnt even notice he went to church that day, he usually only goes on easter.
Fear, guilt, shame all came rushing back. We held hands and bowed our heads in prayer but he chatted instead.
He said, I want to talk to you about whay happened 6 weeks ago. Im so sorry. I said dont be sorry. I haven't been myself for the past year. I dont know why I did that. It wasnt you, it was me. Alan said, its me too. He told me that I am myself, that I just grew up in a sheltered home with strict rules. That as we grow we experience new things and we grow into better people. That I shouldnt feel bad. It kinda reminded me of the serpent telking adam and eve to eat from the forbidden tree. They had a choice to follow God and what he said right amd wrong was but they chose to define for themself what right and wrong wad and ate the forbidden fruit.
So here I stand holding the hands of the devil in the front of my church. He then told me he would never want to hurt my marriage. That shawn is his best friend and so am I now. We agreed to live as if it never happened.
A month later we went to a them park called Frontier City. On our group was myself, Shawn, Alan, Alans gf and his gfs sister. My hubby hurt his back lifting something at work so he was unabke to rids most of ths rides. At one point Alans gf and her sis wanted to go watch a show. Alan and I got to ride some coasters as his gf didnt want to. The entire month since Alan came to church I never thought abiut his dick once, I thought I was free from those desires I fell into. However thay changed. We got on the log ride anx off we went into a dark tunnel. The log ride everyone sits between each others legs. We were alone and I was in front of him. I could feel his penis getting erect as we were on the ride. With that alone my mind was rushing with desires again. I wanted to touch it so bad. I thought about what he told me, about theres nothing wrong with me, that im just living life by my desires for once.
We got off the ride and I couldnt find hubby. I text him and he was at the show. That it was almost over.
I quickly knew how I wanted to spend the last few moments alone with Alan. I grabbed his hand and we ran to the Farris Wheel. We got in and slowly went up and then stopping to unload and load more people. When we were mid way up I got on my knees. I gave him that sams look that day in his truck. He didn't pull it out though. I had too. I grabbed it and it immediately was filled with life and grew in.my hands. I opened wide and took as much as I could. I gagged and spit and sucked. I grabbed his balls and squeezed as I sucked.
Alan was saying over and over how he cant believe this is happening. The ride then started to descend and pick up speed. I sat back next to him and would stroke him when we were close to ground level and as we ascended I would suck him. He then also his fingers io my blouse and grabbed my breasts. I knew that this was not gonna be the last time we had an encounter. The ride ended with us being some of the first ones off. I didnt get him off, so was feeling bumbed. I told Alan to not tell shawn, that I love him, but, I want to meet you again. Alan said of course.
As soon as I swen my hubby I hugged him, the guilt and shame was becoming desire. I felt turned on knowing I had another man in my mouth and my hubby had no clue. I gave him a long passionate kiss. The taste of Alan was still in my mouth. I had fully accepted the dark path I was about to go on.
Again sorry for typos. Someday I will go back and edit
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