Ok I understand now,👍my experience with my wife cheating was so different,For days after that event, I was compelled to stroke my cock to the visual memory of the experience. That helped somewhat with acceptance, the more I jerked to the visions of KK and all those cocks, the hotter it somehow made things, despite the background anger. I was also having an affair at the time, so there's that component - the sort of "comfort fucking" and revenge fucking to salve the emotional distress...
He was a guy she worked with it started of by having coffee breaks together then the odd drink after work then she give him a lift home one night after work,
He invited her in to see his apartment were he kissed her and they ended up in bed together,
This went on for three months before she broke it of she said she realised how dangerous it was to our relationship and our marriage,
I could have ended there with me knowing nothing about it but her lover decided to ring our house number and inform me about their affair thinking if he split us up she would come running back to him,
I have never been one not to meet a problem head on so when she came home I challenged her about her affair,
She admitted it cryed and begged for forgiveness swore she didn't love him and it was only sex as if that made a difference,
She swore it was only me she loved and she was so sorry and it had been a huge mistake on her part,
For three months we hardly spoke to each other and I had moved into the spare room,
In those three months she said she was sorry a hundred times stopped going out with her girlfriends rang me every night when she was leaving work never left my side if we were out at night,
A month after that I got up in the night to go to the toilet and as I was passing her bedroom door it was open slightly and I heard her sobbing she was crying so hard I couldn't just walk away and I went into the room for the first time in months I sat on the bed and when she realised I was there she threw her arms around me again begging for forgiveness and this time I listened to her,
I held her then we were kissing then she asked me to make love to her,
After months without sex I gave in but the first time I didn't make love to her I fucked her hard face down and she took it without complaining,
Afterwards I apologised but she said she deserved it then we made love holding each other like we used to kissing and making slow sensual love,
The next day we talked I mean really talked I realised I still loved her and it wasn't the sex with her lover that upset me so much but the betrayal her going behind my back that is what really hurt,
We decided that our relationship was worth fighting for,
Over the next year we worked on each other and slowly rebuild our marriage,
I began to realise thinking about her having sex with another man turned me on and made me horny,
Our sex life was better than ever because now it wasn't just love but lust we had for each other, it was a year after that I took the next step and shared her with another man ,but that is another story,
That is how we got into the lifestyle of her being a hot wife and me being her partner in crime as long as there was no deceit and I knew about everything I was ok with it,
Over then last 10 years of and on we have experienced almost everything a couple could experience,
We made mistakes lots of them but we made them together and found what works for us,
I hope you find our storie interesting we were lucky lots of couples are not so lucky and can't find a way back from cheating, 👍