The cum inside of me is the essence of this entire thing. I will insist on a condom with certain guys and certain circumstances and the sex is sometimes great. That said, I probably won't play again with a guy who insists on using a condom or won't get a test. I always have a pretty current test. A guy who insists on a condom either knows something I don't (such as he has an STD and is being responsible) or he doesn't trust me. Either way it's fine, but I do play for the cum and I've NEVER gotten an STD of any type.
You know I have always been addicted to cheating both by me and by other women's husbands. Part of the psychology of that addiction is carrying around his cum inside me for several days. I learned when I was probably 16 that a man's sperm stays alive inside the vagina for at least two days and stays inside the vagina after it's no longer viable for 5 days. That fascinated me when I was young and when I began having sex of any kind I always thought about guys' sperm being inside me. That goes double for when I was cheating. Around my husband, friends, at work, other guys, etc I got a thrill from knowing that another man's cum was inside of me and wondered somehow if other people could tell.
I recited my wedding vows with other men's sperm inside of my womb and had more added on my wedding night by my husband's friend and groomsman and the next several days on our honeymoon. I can't help it and couldn't (or never really wanted) to control the thrill. I live for the cum and don't feel as if another woman's husband has really been unfaithful to her unless he's left his seed inside of me. No doubt his wife would disagree and probably not be that accepting of him fucking me with a condom either LOL!
Mrs Hotwife