The similarities continue....so my first wife came home one night and it was very late, but like your husband I was awake (we always are awake) and hard because I knew she was out cheating on me. I wanted sloppy seconds, or to reclaim her, or something. I was extremely aroused and I wanted her. So I made my move and she says "I can't....I don't feel well." I let her alone after that...and I never tried again!!! I didn't believe her not feeling well story and I took it as a sign, wrongfully now that I look back at it, that she didn't want me. She just couldn't open up, probably for fear I'd leave her. I couldn't leave as we had a ...... and I'd never abandon my little one. So she got to cheat the whole marriage and I got to develop as a cuck.I once came home very late from the office after getting fucked by my boss. Hubby was in bed and I thought asleep. Therefore I didn't shower and clean up, not wanting to wake him. I got into bed as quietly as I could but he wasn't asleep after all. He wanted sex and I tried to tell him I was too tired but he was insistent. He got between my legs and pushed his cock into my cum filled cunt and froze. He stared down at me for a second or two, jerked a couple of times and shot his load into me. Then he rolled over and didn't say a word. ......, I thought, now he definitely knows I'm a cheating slut and I laid awake all night worried what he'd say the next day but he never mentioned it. I carried on cheating for many years until I met the man who would become my current hubby.
Funny that she never knew, and still doesn't, how much fun I was having with her cheating on me. The most tormenting angst was early on when I thought she might leave me, and it gave me my best orgasms too! Later that lessened, but not a lot, as I knew she wasn't going to. We always had great sex. Her cheating made me a much better lover as I always felt I was competing with someone, and she reaped the benefits. Incredibly, back then I could cum four, five, once even six times before losing my erection! How things could have been a lot different had she let me have her that night and opened up about everything. By the time my kids were grown I'd had enough and was ready to move on and find a woman who was right for me and develop real closeness and intimacy.
As for you, what made your marriage fail? You had your "on board with everything" cuck hubby, what went wrong if you don't mind my asking?