As for excuses, we often struggled for money after we got together. It drove me CRAZY when older men hit on her at work and she told me about it. I loved it and was humiliated and jealous at the same time. I just knew those men sounded grown up, smarter and more successful and with more money than me, like maybe she SHOULD be with them. I felt like a little boy next to them, as I imagined them anyway. She was obviously attracted to a few. She started going out with friends who badmouthed me. She later told me she was angry, it was my fault, I didn't appreciate her, I was like a roommate, etc. Also, it didn't help that I had no game and basically begged for sex, and was never very alpha or confident. She definitely likes masculine, confident men. Sexually, even at 22 or 28 I was done in 20 minutes or so, and lost all interest, usually until a day or three later. So now, looking back, I always left her...wanting. Between being cucked by older, more successful men and younger, more alpha men…it all drives me crazy. And she has told her friends I am small, or can't perform, or that she deserves to be fucked hard by a real man.