Hi......so my girlfriend and I have been together for 5 years now and we have a bizarre sex life to say the least. I've always had kind of a thing for cuckolding that grew more intense as I aged. I'm 33 and I am comfortable in my relationship. We are engaged and have been since the New Year. Now are sex life...
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So I am on a medication that really messes with my sex drive. Throughout my day I rarely think of sex and my dick doesn't really get hard. As WEIRD AS IT SOUNDS the only thing that really works for me is adderal and a few specific diet pills. Seems nuts but this is what it is. Getting of my meds is not an option. About once a year I get courageous and think I dont need them. After about a week of not taking them I get extremely irritable, mean, moody...almost like I hear voices....hard to explain. It makes life difficult for my girlfriend when i'm off my meds because I'm a dick. Off my meds I don't think of the consequences of my actions and I'm likely to get into trouble. Life before my medication was difficult for me. Sex controlled a lot of my life. ....... Prison. I've been outta trouble for about 6 years now. Got a little of topic but needless to say we only have sex 2-3 times a month when I take the pills. Sex is never , like, spontaneous for us. Always planned. She showers and we usually watch a tv show or something....and the entire time my dick is SO FUCKING HARD. But the routtine is I usually have to wait until movie/snack ect. is over.
So I do the ol' flip-up-n-tuck and sit there literally fantasizing about older men fucking her sideways the entire movie. At some point before bed I will start to massage her nipples through her shirt. ABOUT HER: She is great. I love her to death. She is 33 BBW a little shy, and the woman I will likely spend the rest of my life with. With minutes she will pop-out her boob and slowly guide my mouth to her nipples. I suck on the rings for quite a while. What happens next is I eat her pussy usually until she cums. She says things like, "good boy" and pats me on the head. Sometimes I stick my tongue out as far as I can and she will basically fuck it. Sometimes, lately anyways, is I use my fingers or a dildo so she can kinda get fucked long and hard because, unfortunely, I cum VERY quick. maybe 2 mins so I wanna make her satisfied. After I've done that I slide inside her and release extremely quickly. The whole process lasts about 45 mins to an hour. We always have "talked" about bringing a "daddy" in and I've even posted on a few personal classified ads. Got a ton of pics/offers but I never follow through. Once, when I was at work, we had posted from the night before and someone responded...I wasn't there, but he did go over there and fuck her...and I did eat it when I got home but that was years ago n im not sure if she even liked it?? IDK why but for the longest time I thought it was because I was afraid I'd cum 2 quick. I bought a cock cage and it works great but I don't think she understands I got this so if we wanted to have guys come over, I can wear it, and not cum and spoil the fun. Idk what i'm looking for from yall but I wanted to share and hear some thoughts......
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So I am on a medication that really messes with my sex drive. Throughout my day I rarely think of sex and my dick doesn't really get hard. As WEIRD AS IT SOUNDS the only thing that really works for me is adderal and a few specific diet pills. Seems nuts but this is what it is. Getting of my meds is not an option. About once a year I get courageous and think I dont need them. After about a week of not taking them I get extremely irritable, mean, moody...almost like I hear voices....hard to explain. It makes life difficult for my girlfriend when i'm off my meds because I'm a dick. Off my meds I don't think of the consequences of my actions and I'm likely to get into trouble. Life before my medication was difficult for me. Sex controlled a lot of my life. ....... Prison. I've been outta trouble for about 6 years now. Got a little of topic but needless to say we only have sex 2-3 times a month when I take the pills. Sex is never , like, spontaneous for us. Always planned. She showers and we usually watch a tv show or something....and the entire time my dick is SO FUCKING HARD. But the routtine is I usually have to wait until movie/snack ect. is over.
So I do the ol' flip-up-n-tuck and sit there literally fantasizing about older men fucking her sideways the entire movie. At some point before bed I will start to massage her nipples through her shirt. ABOUT HER: She is great. I love her to death. She is 33 BBW a little shy, and the woman I will likely spend the rest of my life with. With minutes she will pop-out her boob and slowly guide my mouth to her nipples. I suck on the rings for quite a while. What happens next is I eat her pussy usually until she cums. She says things like, "good boy" and pats me on the head. Sometimes I stick my tongue out as far as I can and she will basically fuck it. Sometimes, lately anyways, is I use my fingers or a dildo so she can kinda get fucked long and hard because, unfortunely, I cum VERY quick. maybe 2 mins so I wanna make her satisfied. After I've done that I slide inside her and release extremely quickly. The whole process lasts about 45 mins to an hour. We always have "talked" about bringing a "daddy" in and I've even posted on a few personal classified ads. Got a ton of pics/offers but I never follow through. Once, when I was at work, we had posted from the night before and someone responded...I wasn't there, but he did go over there and fuck her...and I did eat it when I got home but that was years ago n im not sure if she even liked it?? IDK why but for the longest time I thought it was because I was afraid I'd cum 2 quick. I bought a cock cage and it works great but I don't think she understands I got this so if we wanted to have guys come over, I can wear it, and not cum and spoil the fun. Idk what i'm looking for from yall but I wanted to share and hear some thoughts......
