"disjointed and rambling"
Yeah, but it thinks that's to be expected. You are definitely conflicted and not clear whether your seeking a cuckold/hotwife event or a 3-some.
The race car is a poor example. Consider classifications and handicaps, both in an effort to level the playing field. A bad driver with an properly powered car has a better chance of winning.than a good driver with an under powered car.
It seems like you may not yet be emotionally ready, your fantasy may be doing the driving.
Sometimes the sizzle is better than the steak.
