I texted my fiance about sharing her sexually. It was after a small fight, which I figured triggers the thoughts I havevof sharing her if I wasn't already thinking about it. It went a little like this.
Me: I feel like you pick a fight more often since I told you about my kink
Her: Yeah, I probably do it because I feel like you don't care if you lose me
Me: Is that even possible though? I know I'm not going to go anywhere, but you doubt yourself. If you don't want to do it that's fine too. Just stop starting arguments because it makes me think this way.
Her: We can do it, but together. I don't want to ruin our family.
We have two small children. So I understand her feelings. It also feels like we don't have any alone time lately. And our sex life has been compartmentalized. Back to the conversation
Me: I feel like you're not into it. Let's just leave it as a fantasy.
Her: I love you more than anyone I've been with. I don't want you to look back at this as something you never got to do. You might even leave me so you can live this weird dream.
Me: I could never cheat on you. I want to see you getting it. Maybe we can have a threesome where you're getting it from behind while you blow me. I used to watch a ton of porn. Now I want you to be my porn. Ever hear of sloppy seconds?
Her: We can try it as long as when we're done you are still in love with me, and I can give you a blowjob when I get back. Am I the sloppy second?
Me: If you want to. I remember I used to practically beg you to and you always had a reson not to. And no, it's when a woman has sex with one guy until he cums. Then she has sex with another guy, using the first cum as lubrication.
She mentioned that she's been wanting to go down on me but I "never seem interested" which is bullshit because she's always annoyed that I always have my hands on her ass whenever we're relaxing near each other. A bit later the conversation starts up again.
Me: We never did go on that date. We spend a lot of time together doing nothing.
Her: Yes, I want to go dancing and enjoy us. I want us to have fun
Me: Yeah, I wish we could do anything at all.
Her: Would you go to the bar with me?
Me: Definitely. And we can keep ane eye out of some fun 😜
Her: Yes plssss
Me: I do have this injury though. So I can't really dance right now, but you can.
Her: Okay baby
About 20 minutes later
Her: On my way
Me: Ok babe
She was having some wine with her sister. They do that like every other week. No big deal, just a contextual detail. I started getting annoyed because she said she wanted to blow me and already it had been ab hour and a half. Her sister lives like 10 minutes away.
Me: Let me know when you're close, you said you're on the way but that was a whole hour ago. I'm just gonna watch some porn waiting for you to show up.
Playing keepy uppie with my bones is tough without some content. And my phone with our sexy pictures is inexplicably out of commission, so I didn't have much of a choice.
Her: You said you'd stopped doing that.
Me: Well I'm about to, waiting on you and your empty promise.
Her: K
Me: You like getting my hopes up.
Her: No, I'm on the way.
Me: I'll be waiting
When she eventually showed up it was late. Like 2am. I had already watched all of my favorites, you can guess the types.
(You're here reading this. You can guess it.)
She was giving me the silent treatment. I went to put my hand on her ass, she gave it a shrug but I put it right back. She didn't seem that upset. I forget everything that we said. But it pretty much equated to
"I was in the mood but you watching porn ruined it"
I said, "Obviously. Something always ruins your mood. This time, conveniently enough, it was me."
"You think it's a joke. You have no idea how it affects me when you watch that."
"I was fantasizing about you."
Eventually she stopped talking and pretended to be asleep with her back to me. I reached into her underwear and grabbed her ass gently... No reaction. I reached down to her opening and it was a little damp. I parted her lips and she was full on wet. I slipped a finger in and she pushed into my hand. I added another and she was more receptive. I massaged around and she was as wet as she had never been before. I couldn't wait to get a piece. I took out my iron and pounded her mound from behind like I was stuck in a sandbar. (Golf pun)
She was flooded. There was just the right amount of room and her fluids. I went insane. I fucked her like a madman. Tame, positionally speaking, but reckless were the strokes. She was wake. Pushing into me. Taking every inch I had to offer with a slight recoil when I had almost bottomed out. Tapping her cervix got a gasp and a jump as a reply over and over and over again. I think it's safe to say she was turned on by something.
I told her, "you're extremely wet. Do you really want to try it?"
She nodded.
"Is it something that you want? Or are you just saying that?
Still grinding on my dick she whispered "It sounds like it might be nice"
I was about to say something or ask something when she continued "I want you to find someone"
That night it felt like I imagine fucking her sloppy seconds might feel like. Though, I think if she really fucked another man first, she'd be a bit looser. I don't know, I have never done it before.
This went on for a bit. The rub is this. I don't have any trusted friends. Just a ton of acquaintances.
Any ideas? I'm a bit stuck and I want this so badly. I don't know how else to move forward. I feel it might relax her a bit and that would make life a dream. So, here's hoping this doesn't get buried.
Me: I feel like you pick a fight more often since I told you about my kink
Her: Yeah, I probably do it because I feel like you don't care if you lose me
Me: Is that even possible though? I know I'm not going to go anywhere, but you doubt yourself. If you don't want to do it that's fine too. Just stop starting arguments because it makes me think this way.
Her: We can do it, but together. I don't want to ruin our family.
We have two small children. So I understand her feelings. It also feels like we don't have any alone time lately. And our sex life has been compartmentalized. Back to the conversation
Me: I feel like you're not into it. Let's just leave it as a fantasy.
Her: I love you more than anyone I've been with. I don't want you to look back at this as something you never got to do. You might even leave me so you can live this weird dream.
Me: I could never cheat on you. I want to see you getting it. Maybe we can have a threesome where you're getting it from behind while you blow me. I used to watch a ton of porn. Now I want you to be my porn. Ever hear of sloppy seconds?
Her: We can try it as long as when we're done you are still in love with me, and I can give you a blowjob when I get back. Am I the sloppy second?
Me: If you want to. I remember I used to practically beg you to and you always had a reson not to. And no, it's when a woman has sex with one guy until he cums. Then she has sex with another guy, using the first cum as lubrication.
She mentioned that she's been wanting to go down on me but I "never seem interested" which is bullshit because she's always annoyed that I always have my hands on her ass whenever we're relaxing near each other. A bit later the conversation starts up again.
Me: We never did go on that date. We spend a lot of time together doing nothing.
Her: Yes, I want to go dancing and enjoy us. I want us to have fun
Me: Yeah, I wish we could do anything at all.
Her: Would you go to the bar with me?
Me: Definitely. And we can keep ane eye out of some fun 😜
Her: Yes plssss
Me: I do have this injury though. So I can't really dance right now, but you can.
Her: Okay baby
About 20 minutes later
Her: On my way
Me: Ok babe
She was having some wine with her sister. They do that like every other week. No big deal, just a contextual detail. I started getting annoyed because she said she wanted to blow me and already it had been ab hour and a half. Her sister lives like 10 minutes away.
Me: Let me know when you're close, you said you're on the way but that was a whole hour ago. I'm just gonna watch some porn waiting for you to show up.
Playing keepy uppie with my bones is tough without some content. And my phone with our sexy pictures is inexplicably out of commission, so I didn't have much of a choice.
Her: You said you'd stopped doing that.
Me: Well I'm about to, waiting on you and your empty promise.
Her: K
Me: You like getting my hopes up.
Her: No, I'm on the way.
Me: I'll be waiting
When she eventually showed up it was late. Like 2am. I had already watched all of my favorites, you can guess the types.
(You're here reading this. You can guess it.)
She was giving me the silent treatment. I went to put my hand on her ass, she gave it a shrug but I put it right back. She didn't seem that upset. I forget everything that we said. But it pretty much equated to
"I was in the mood but you watching porn ruined it"
I said, "Obviously. Something always ruins your mood. This time, conveniently enough, it was me."
"You think it's a joke. You have no idea how it affects me when you watch that."
"I was fantasizing about you."
Eventually she stopped talking and pretended to be asleep with her back to me. I reached into her underwear and grabbed her ass gently... No reaction. I reached down to her opening and it was a little damp. I parted her lips and she was full on wet. I slipped a finger in and she pushed into my hand. I added another and she was more receptive. I massaged around and she was as wet as she had never been before. I couldn't wait to get a piece. I took out my iron and pounded her mound from behind like I was stuck in a sandbar. (Golf pun)
She was flooded. There was just the right amount of room and her fluids. I went insane. I fucked her like a madman. Tame, positionally speaking, but reckless were the strokes. She was wake. Pushing into me. Taking every inch I had to offer with a slight recoil when I had almost bottomed out. Tapping her cervix got a gasp and a jump as a reply over and over and over again. I think it's safe to say she was turned on by something.
I told her, "you're extremely wet. Do you really want to try it?"
She nodded.
"Is it something that you want? Or are you just saying that?
Still grinding on my dick she whispered "It sounds like it might be nice"
I was about to say something or ask something when she continued "I want you to find someone"
That night it felt like I imagine fucking her sloppy seconds might feel like. Though, I think if she really fucked another man first, she'd be a bit looser. I don't know, I have never done it before.
This went on for a bit. The rub is this. I don't have any trusted friends. Just a ton of acquaintances.
Any ideas? I'm a bit stuck and I want this so badly. I don't know how else to move forward. I feel it might relax her a bit and that would make life a dream. So, here's hoping this doesn't get buried.
