Let The Cuck Angst Begin!

[Siesta Swingers]

My Hotwife is spending the day tomorrow and tomorrow night with her longterm Bull.
She’s been Cucking me for 10 years now and still I experience the welcomed yet feared Cuck Angst.
Cuckold angst, that notorious term.

Does anyone else still experience this?

I get those complex rollercoaster of emotions and psychological self doubting.
A complex mix of feelings I oscillate between rock hard arousal, excitement, fear, and insecurity. I love watching her experience pleasure with her Bull then I feel inadequate and jealous he makes her cum so hard.
They are supposed to record a video for me.
Im looking forward to her date, even more to watching her video and jacking off to it but fear that internal emotional turbulence.

I will post some updates and photos from her date.

 

[vader 77]

My Hotwife is spending the day tomorrow and tomorrow night with her longterm Bull.
She’s been Cucking me for 10 years now and still I experience the welcomed yet feared Cuck Angst.
Cuckold angst, that notorious term.

Does anyone else still experience this?

I get those complex rollercoaster of emotions and psychological self doubting.
A complex mix of feelings I oscillate between rock hard arousal, excitement, fear, and insecurity. I love watching her experience pleasure with her Bull then I feel inadequate and jealous he makes her cum so hard.
They are supposed to record a video for me.
Im looking forward to her date, even more to watching her video and jacking off to it but fear that internal emotional turbulence.

I will post some updates and photos from her date.

Those are normal feelings. It’s too bad you can’t participate with them so you don’t feel left out.

 

[Siesta Swingers]

Those are normal feelings. It’s too bad you can’t participate with them so you don’t feel left out.

Yes I agree. She has other men that enjoy having me present and even participate in MFM but this guy he likes her all to himself and she enjoys being dominated by him. So, like a good Cuck, Im glad she enjoys her time with him

 

[575Cuck]

Those feelings make it great
Sure at the time it sucks but sometimes you have to realize you just can’t compete

 

[Siesta Swingers]

She told me tonight, with a smile on her face and that special look in her eyes, that I won’t be permitted to fuck her for several days after her date since he’s promising her to wear her pussy out!
She says she will give me a good blow job tonight to hold me over for the next several days!
This is going to be a very good date!

 

[Siesta Swingers]

She got in bed last night and I was rock hard ready to eat her pussy out. As I headed down to lick her pussy she said, No not tonight your pussy free for several days, no licking no fingering, I’ll suck you off so you can ...... tonight but my pussy is his till after my date!
Wow, I got even more aroused. She laid back and I fed her my cock and she enjoyed sucking me off. I blew my load in her mouth and gave her a deep passionate french kiss, mixing my cum with our tongues.
Three hours latter I was rock hard again and jerked off lying next to her imagining her date and sucking him off.

 

[Siesta Swingers]

She just txted that she had arrived at his home.
Im sure they will fuck as soon as she gets inside.
They last fucked over 5 months ago so lots of pent up lust!
Over the next 24 hours I imagine he will cum inside her pussy 3 times or more.
Its difficult for me to think of anything else but her being fucked and sucking his cock while she’s on a date.

 

[coastalkid]

Surely the angst isn't as powerful/potent as it was 10 years ago. I'm not implying that you are not feeling angst, but you have been together for 10 years that at least says you don't have the fear of losing her. Ten years is a long time to be successfully in the lifestyle. You're obviously doing something right to be able to make it work. I would hope that over time your angst has evolved and more focused on the positive and less on the negative.

It's my personal opinion that not much is discussed about the emotional/mental impacts and implications for cuckold husbands. By contrast, if you use the example of husband trying convince his wife to be a hot wife, women obsess on their flaws, inadequacies, age, weight, and appearance. The husband/bf encourages his wife/bf and works to convince her she's wrong and none of those things are true.

Once she tries it and has a pleasant experience she realizes her self perception was all unfounded insecurity. Meanwhile, the cuckold husband has now inherited all the insecurities his wife once had. He's too small, he doesn't last long enough, he can't get it up, he's too fat, he's dull, he's unattractive. All of those things may very well be false but left unaddressed he will always have doubts. An ego can only take so much before the will to preserve it gives up.

I've not seen much about couples that realize this dynamic and what they do to address it. More often you do read much about how the emotional/mental torment for husbands are cruelly delivered.

I believe I've seen your posts on another website with a different name. I've followed you actually for a quite a while. I can tell you're having fun and you're honest. That's why I value your thoughts! Thanks!

 

[575Cuck]

She just txted that she had arrived at his home.
Im sure they will fuck as soon as she gets inside.
They last fucked over 5 months ago so lots of pent up lust!
Over the next 24 hours I imagine he will cum inside her pussy 3 times or more.
Its difficult for me to think of anything else but her being fucked and sucking his cock while she’s on a date.

Totally agree

 

[Siesta Swingers]

Surely the angst isn't as powerful/potent as it was 10 years ago. I'm not implying that you are not feeling angst, but you have been together for 10 years that at least says you don't have the fear of losing her. Ten years is a long time to be successfully in the lifestyle. You're obviously doing something right to be able to make it work. I would hope that over time your angst has evolved and more focused on the positive and less on the negative.

It's my personal opinion that not much is discussed about the emotional/mental impacts and implications for cuckold husbands. By contrast, if you use the example of husband trying convince his wife to be a hot wife, women obsess on their flaws, inadequacies, age, weight, and appearance. The husband/bf encourages his wife/bf and works to convince her she's wrong and none of those things are true.

Once she tries it and has a pleasant experience she realizes her self perception was all unfounded insecurity. Meanwhile, the cuckold husband has now inherited all the insecurities his wife once had. He's too small, he doesn't last long enough, he can't get it up, he's too fat, he's dull, he's unattractive. All of those things may very well be false but left unaddressed he will always have doubts. An ego can only take so much before the will to preserve it gives up.

I've not seen much about couples that realize this dynamic and what they do to address it. More often you do read much about how the emotional/mental torment for husbands are cruelly delivered.

I believe I've seen your posts on another website with a different name. I've followed you actually for a quite a while. I can tell you're having fun and you're honest. That's why I value your thoughts! Thanks!

OMG that first solo Hotwife date 10 years ago.
Hell yes I was totally on a adrenaline high! My over the top, crazy enthusiasm for her getting fucked was “out of control”. I was pimping her out ! Wow did I need a reset and successfully did so. I’ve learned so much about my obsessive Voyeurism and learned to control it, most of the time.
I do still get very excited when she goes out alone on her dates! Very exciting for the both of us. I learned to give her total control of who, when and where she fucks.

 

[Siesta Swingers]

So reality check.
She called a few minutes ago. I could tell she was disappointed in the tone of her voice.
He was stressed out had just been fired from his job, his personal health is poor, wasn’t able to perform. He took her out to dinner then back home and feel asleep. This morning they had lame lazy morning sex. Definitely not what she was looking forward too and a real let down.
It happens, life gets in the way.

 

[shorebird]

We have been at it for over a decade. She has been with several guys in that time. I've been with a few women as well. Yet, I have to say it has been quite awhile since I have felt the angst I feel today. I often observe, listen and or participate but this time she wants to see him alone.

She will see him tomorrow morning at his house by her request. I offered to do it here but it is clear she wants him all to herself without me being there. I think it makes her feel very naughty to go to his place, she says the last time she was there a female neighbor came (likely a bit nosey) out to say hello to him as my wife was leaving. It was pretty much a walk of shame as she left. She is somewhat older than him and beyond pregnancy years. Yet, it was pretty obvious what she was there for, the neighbor may have even heard them making love as she can be very loud.

He is very well hung and gets very hard according to her. He can also go for quite awhile. She has multiple orgasms and squirts very often and very much. To top it off he is a great kisser and romantic which I know she loves. He is a really nice guy in my and her estimation and I really fear no losing of her to him but the attraction is clearly there. I deeply want this for her but her seeing him alone does get the butterflies going!

She is very good at never making me feel badly abut other men. She always makes sure we are good and have had sex before she meets with others usually while I'm there or listening (which is very hot- "She said to the other guy she sees occasionally " I going to fu@k you until you beg me to stop, then I'm going to fu@k you some more"). Says she can just turn it off when it is over but I know she craves connecting with him but never shoves it in my face. We do maintain a healthy fairly active sexual relationship between the two of us despite the men she has seen. They are going to record the encounter, he'll also take a few still and maybe even phone me in yet I'm surprised my angst is so high. I guess I'm not really asking for any advice, maybe some comforting empathetic words. But I guess many of you would consider me very very fortunate! I'll report back after this engagement with one of her lovers.

 

[coastalkid]

So reality check.
She called a few minutes ago. I could tell she was disappointed in the tone of her voice.
He was stressed out had just been fired from his job, his personal health is poor, wasn’t able to perform. He took her out to dinner then back home and feel asleep. This morning they had lame lazy morning sex. Definitely not what she was looking forward too and a real let down.
It happens, life gets in the way.

Reality, it's a bitch sometimes!

 

[Siesta Swingers]

Reality, it's a bitch sometimes!

Yes. We imagine and fantasize these Bulls to be fucking machines but sometimes they are as human as our wives. Their emotions, feelings, health, and life events affect them just as much or even more than us Cucks.

I was a Bull for many years. Fucking for exercise and pure sport was fun but not a sustainable lifestyle for me. I desperately needed that solid dependable committed relationship to satisfy me.

 

[coastalkid]

Yes. We imagine and fantasize these Bulls to be fucking machines but sometimes they are as human as our wives. Their emotions, feelings, health, and life events affect them just as much or even more than us Cucks.

I was a Bull for many years. Fucking for exercise and pure sport was fun but not a sustainable lifestyle for me. I desperately needed that solid dependable committed relationship to satisfy me.

Maybe you surprise her by tying her up and telling her she shouldn't complain ( I realize she was disappointed and not complaining. I'm just saying that for effect). Then give her a good working over. That'll take her mind off the disappointment.