How I got locked into being a cuck

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I've posted on how I feel into the cuckold rabbit hole before, but it wasn't til a specific night that I felt like I was super sure I was a cuck.

I had been in a relationship with this girl Leann at the very start of college. We had talked for a little while and she had a boyfriend, but he didn't go to the same university. Eventually one night with her roommates in the room asleep, we play fought while I was trying to ...... on the ground (as guests do in dorm rooms) which led to us getting extremely physical. She commenced it by getting on top of me, and was just pushing against my dick with her crotch. Wanting to be respectful I asked if I could grab her boobs, which she said of course and I grabbed them and then went under her shirt to feel them and they felt unreal. Her roommate started snoring louder which prompted us to stop and continue another time.
We talked about it alone, and said we wanted to start a relationship, and ended up fucking right then and there. This was actually when I lost my virginity so I didn't really know what to do. About 2 months and Several sex sessions later Im happy with our relationship, but she seems to be responding alot less. Around this time I notice she started talking to my friend Alex a lot, which is understandable since he's a funny guy.
She starts spending evenings with him without inviting me and I start to get suspicious. I would even point it out to her and she would deny any feelings. It wasn't until one night when I was away from the dorms and I saw her location on Snapchat was next to Alex's. This was probably around midnight so I started feeling restless as I thought about what they could be doing in her dorm. Checking back on Snapchat every few minutes, I eventually see their avatars leave and are driving into the town. They drove around for a while, most likely talking, until I see them stop around a beach.
They stayed at this beach for maybe 2 hours in the same spot. I was only thinking about how he could have been ravaging her pussy, and since I know I'm not that big, he must have been stretching her good while fucking in the car. Pictures of what could be happening filled up my mind which forced me to watch cuckold porn and jerk while imaging what they were doing. They eventually made their way back to the dorms and it had been about 4am.
By the time the clock hit 5 I had masturbated 5 times, which I had never done before. The next day I confronted her about it but denied that anything happened, which is also when I broke things off. I would see Alex around but I think he'd act like I didn't know, but I felt like leann had told him I knew.
Still, looking back at that night gets me super hard. I just wish I could've seen what they were doing in that car on the beach for 2 hours
 
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