Due to a number of factors, my wife's libido has been reduced somewhat of late (though improving in recent weeks). As a cuck fetishist I cannot help but put some blame on my medicore performance in the bedroom providing some sort of contribution to her waning desire.
I've mentioned in previous posts how I am only the second guy she's had sex with and her first was apparently quite smaller than my modest 5.5 x 4.5 erection. This was borne out in the early days of our sex life where she expressed genuine concern over her accommodating me (I guess her first lover didn't know about foreplay LOL) and her moaning in a combination of pleasure and pain when I entered her.
Over the dozen or so years of our relationship (including two kids) she has been able to accommodate me much more easily. I have always suspected that through exposure to porn and a sexually liberal social circle (I.e. girl talk) she has come to realise that I am on the smaller end of the spectrum when it comes to cock size (clinging to the smaller side of average). My staying power is also rather unimpressive - it's a rarity that I can keep it up for more than 5 minutes.
Anyway, I finally had my suspicions confirmed recently. We went to bed where I hoped to initiate sex but found her quite unresponsive as has been common of late. She's even given up on providing me with handjobs, telling me to play with myself and occasionally - when she wants to speed things to their pathetic conclusion - deigning to tickle my unimpressive balls encased in my taut little scrotum whichgets me squirting in seconds.
Given she wasn't in the mood we settled on me dry humping her perfect peach of a butt while keeping our underwear on. The conversation we carried on was quite titillating given the humiliating things it revealed.
I can't remember how we got there but it led to me saying "Maybe you're not in the mood because I can't satisfy you with my little peenie" to which she responded with a laugh.
"Oh" she said "that's why you married an Asian"
"Because they have small pussies?"
"Yeah"
"No" I retorted though the fact she had a tiny pussy certainly hadn't turned me away!
"Yes" she insisted. Obviously the implication was that I was indeed small and had sought out a small pussy to match. So,hoping for confirmation that she now knew I'm unexceptional downstairs I asked
"Remember when you used to think my cock was big?" .
"Yeah" she said laughing again. This turned me on unbelievably as well as sucker punching my ego. Then she went on to tell me about a cartoon she had seen on Facebook that ran like this
WIFE: "I need a new password for ths website"
HUSBAND: "Try 'MyPenis'
WIFE: "That password is not long enough"
We both laughed at this and I wallowed in the thrill of my wife for the first time admitting my cock was indeed small and even going so far as to imply it wasn't long enough. All the while I was rubbing my hard little pencil on her thick and toned derriere.
Hoping to get to intercourse, I turned my attention to her body, stroking her the way she likes and telling her how hot she was (she's been on a fitness kick lately, seemingly replacing the sex we used ot have with squats and hip thrusts).
As with many women though she is of an entirely different opinion on her body and she deflected my compliments. Planting a seed I said "If you went on Tinder so many guys would swipe right"
"What?" she said. I have a feeling she's been slightly jealous of her youngest sister (11 years her junior and very similar in looks and body shape) who has had no shortage of offers on Tinder since creating a profile earlier this year
I had certainly given her pause. "Just put your perfect butt as your profile picutre and you'd get so many offers''. I was careful with tone and phrasing to make this sound totally hypathetical and that I wasn't really suggesting she do it.
"You're giving me ideas" she said jocularly as I continued to grind against her through our underwear.
"You could find a younger guy with a big juicy cock to pleasure you" I ventured
"A younger guy would just make me more tired. I'm already so tired from work" she deflected after the briefest of paused (her tiredness after work has been a major factor in her decline in libido) though the implication here is that my brief efforts in the sack hardly exaust her - in fact she recently used a 10 minute bout of sex (about 3 minutes of penetration before I came) with me as a warm up for her exercise.
I left it there as I wanted to simply plant the seed and the conversation petered out. It looked as though she still wasn't interested in us fucking so I clarified by asking/stating "You want me to hurry up?"
"You always hurry up" she said, not in as jocular a tone as the earlier conversation
"You mean I come too quick?" I clarified
"Yes" she flat batted and that final slug to my ego sent me over the edge and I came in my pants
"Oh I'm coming" I gasped to her obvious amusement before she realised I was serious
"What?" she said, incredulous "You came in your pants? Why didn't you use your hand? "
"Well why not?" I responded
"You can clean them" she said and I was dismissed ot the ensuite where i scraped the come out of my boxers with some toilet paper.
"I can't believe you came in your pants" she told me when I returned to bed "I was just about to start"
It seemed I had misread her body language and she wouldn't have knocked back an attempt for me to enter her. I am hopeful that the talk of a big, juicy, young cock got her excited. "Oh I feel bad" I told her but she dismissed my concerns by tellig me to turn out the lights so we could sleep.
Next morning before the kids were awake I put the moves on her and she was responsive. I had trouble getting hard as happens from time-to-time with a huge dose of performance anxiety given the previous night's activities. So, I used my mouth and hands to get her going and she reached for her vibrator and instructed me to suck her tits while she held the toy on her clitoris. I began stroking her outer lips with my fingers as I suckled her delicious B-cups and was getting her toward orgasm. So much so she started involuntarily pumping her hips. I took this as a signal to slide two fingers inside but she grabbed my wrist shortly after to remove them and groaned in frustration as she hadn't quite got there and her clit was now too sensitve for the toy.
In these situations it is still possible for her to come if I pound into her hard from behind for a few minutes and she flipped on to her tummy to allow me to enter her quickly and do just that (her hot, brown body, naked and prone before me never fails to turn mevon). My slender member slid easily into her wet pussy and I immediatley went to town on her and I could tell from her moaning she was on the runway and ready to take flight. Unfortunately i felt like I was going to come in what can't have been more than 20 seconds. In such situations I usually withdraw and wait a few seconds before going again but on this occasion I felt I had absolutely no control and experienced true permature ejaculation for only the second time in my life, exploding in my hand as I vainly squeezed the head.
"Oh my god, I just came" I said indignantly.
"It's ok" she reassured "It's the morning" referring to the fact I usually have even less stayng power when we make love in the AM.
This was a huge blow for me as - although my cuck fetish means I like to fantasise I am completely inadequate - I still pride myself on being able to keep my wife satisfied (hence why our play so regularly involves her vibrator).
So, yeah, some hot developments and I've planted the seed around her getting a dating website profiile but I'm also experiencing some real cuck angst given how I was unable to fuck for even 1 minute. Those true mixed feelings of being turned on by my lack of bedroom prowess but also feeling like shit about it.
I've mentioned in previous posts how I am only the second guy she's had sex with and her first was apparently quite smaller than my modest 5.5 x 4.5 erection. This was borne out in the early days of our sex life where she expressed genuine concern over her accommodating me (I guess her first lover didn't know about foreplay LOL) and her moaning in a combination of pleasure and pain when I entered her.
Over the dozen or so years of our relationship (including two kids) she has been able to accommodate me much more easily. I have always suspected that through exposure to porn and a sexually liberal social circle (I.e. girl talk) she has come to realise that I am on the smaller end of the spectrum when it comes to cock size (clinging to the smaller side of average). My staying power is also rather unimpressive - it's a rarity that I can keep it up for more than 5 minutes.
Anyway, I finally had my suspicions confirmed recently. We went to bed where I hoped to initiate sex but found her quite unresponsive as has been common of late. She's even given up on providing me with handjobs, telling me to play with myself and occasionally - when she wants to speed things to their pathetic conclusion - deigning to tickle my unimpressive balls encased in my taut little scrotum whichgets me squirting in seconds.
Given she wasn't in the mood we settled on me dry humping her perfect peach of a butt while keeping our underwear on. The conversation we carried on was quite titillating given the humiliating things it revealed.
I can't remember how we got there but it led to me saying "Maybe you're not in the mood because I can't satisfy you with my little peenie" to which she responded with a laugh.
"Oh" she said "that's why you married an Asian"
"Because they have small pussies?"
"Yeah"
"No" I retorted though the fact she had a tiny pussy certainly hadn't turned me away!
"Yes" she insisted. Obviously the implication was that I was indeed small and had sought out a small pussy to match. So,hoping for confirmation that she now knew I'm unexceptional downstairs I asked
"Remember when you used to think my cock was big?" .
"Yeah" she said laughing again. This turned me on unbelievably as well as sucker punching my ego. Then she went on to tell me about a cartoon she had seen on Facebook that ran like this
WIFE: "I need a new password for ths website"
HUSBAND: "Try 'MyPenis'
WIFE: "That password is not long enough"
We both laughed at this and I wallowed in the thrill of my wife for the first time admitting my cock was indeed small and even going so far as to imply it wasn't long enough. All the while I was rubbing my hard little pencil on her thick and toned derriere.
Hoping to get to intercourse, I turned my attention to her body, stroking her the way she likes and telling her how hot she was (she's been on a fitness kick lately, seemingly replacing the sex we used ot have with squats and hip thrusts).
As with many women though she is of an entirely different opinion on her body and she deflected my compliments. Planting a seed I said "If you went on Tinder so many guys would swipe right"
"What?" she said. I have a feeling she's been slightly jealous of her youngest sister (11 years her junior and very similar in looks and body shape) who has had no shortage of offers on Tinder since creating a profile earlier this year
I had certainly given her pause. "Just put your perfect butt as your profile picutre and you'd get so many offers''. I was careful with tone and phrasing to make this sound totally hypathetical and that I wasn't really suggesting she do it.
"You're giving me ideas" she said jocularly as I continued to grind against her through our underwear.
"You could find a younger guy with a big juicy cock to pleasure you" I ventured
"A younger guy would just make me more tired. I'm already so tired from work" she deflected after the briefest of paused (her tiredness after work has been a major factor in her decline in libido) though the implication here is that my brief efforts in the sack hardly exaust her - in fact she recently used a 10 minute bout of sex (about 3 minutes of penetration before I came) with me as a warm up for her exercise.
I left it there as I wanted to simply plant the seed and the conversation petered out. It looked as though she still wasn't interested in us fucking so I clarified by asking/stating "You want me to hurry up?"
"You always hurry up" she said, not in as jocular a tone as the earlier conversation
"You mean I come too quick?" I clarified
"Yes" she flat batted and that final slug to my ego sent me over the edge and I came in my pants
"Oh I'm coming" I gasped to her obvious amusement before she realised I was serious
"What?" she said, incredulous "You came in your pants? Why didn't you use your hand? "
"Well why not?" I responded
"You can clean them" she said and I was dismissed ot the ensuite where i scraped the come out of my boxers with some toilet paper.
"I can't believe you came in your pants" she told me when I returned to bed "I was just about to start"
It seemed I had misread her body language and she wouldn't have knocked back an attempt for me to enter her. I am hopeful that the talk of a big, juicy, young cock got her excited. "Oh I feel bad" I told her but she dismissed my concerns by tellig me to turn out the lights so we could sleep.
Next morning before the kids were awake I put the moves on her and she was responsive. I had trouble getting hard as happens from time-to-time with a huge dose of performance anxiety given the previous night's activities. So, I used my mouth and hands to get her going and she reached for her vibrator and instructed me to suck her tits while she held the toy on her clitoris. I began stroking her outer lips with my fingers as I suckled her delicious B-cups and was getting her toward orgasm. So much so she started involuntarily pumping her hips. I took this as a signal to slide two fingers inside but she grabbed my wrist shortly after to remove them and groaned in frustration as she hadn't quite got there and her clit was now too sensitve for the toy.
In these situations it is still possible for her to come if I pound into her hard from behind for a few minutes and she flipped on to her tummy to allow me to enter her quickly and do just that (her hot, brown body, naked and prone before me never fails to turn mevon). My slender member slid easily into her wet pussy and I immediatley went to town on her and I could tell from her moaning she was on the runway and ready to take flight. Unfortunately i felt like I was going to come in what can't have been more than 20 seconds. In such situations I usually withdraw and wait a few seconds before going again but on this occasion I felt I had absolutely no control and experienced true permature ejaculation for only the second time in my life, exploding in my hand as I vainly squeezed the head.
"Oh my god, I just came" I said indignantly.
"It's ok" she reassured "It's the morning" referring to the fact I usually have even less stayng power when we make love in the AM.
This was a huge blow for me as - although my cuck fetish means I like to fantasise I am completely inadequate - I still pride myself on being able to keep my wife satisfied (hence why our play so regularly involves her vibrator).
So, yeah, some hot developments and I've planted the seed around her getting a dating website profiile but I'm also experiencing some real cuck angst given how I was unable to fuck for even 1 minute. Those true mixed feelings of being turned on by my lack of bedroom prowess but also feeling like shit about it.
