We’re 34 and have been together since we were 17. I recently found out my wife of 4 years has been ...... with her married colleague for 5 years. It started not long after we got engaged and only stopped when I found messages and emails a few months back. She confessed everything and has stopped seeing him. While I was angry/upset ever since I find my wife irresistible. We have sex so much more (say 3 times a week) and I always fantasise of them together. I saw pictures of him naked and his cock was as thick as a can of coke whereas I have a ‘pencil’ dick. She first started fingering herself and had her first orgasm after she started seeing him.I’ve gone obsessed with eating her pussy /sniffing her knickers and getting her to call me a cuckold and asking her to make fun of my little dick (which she only occasionally and reluctantly does). She always fucked him bareback and mostly in our bed. She would also meet him in a quiet car park regularly after work and suck his dick (and occasionally fuck him in the car). She refuses to discuss him and her specifically together and the things they got up too- which is disappointing. He used to be waiting round the corner from our house when I went to the gym and then come in and fuck her senseless and go. I regret acting so angrily when I found out - as I would now love them to carry on with my permission, but think it’s unlikely. I’m hoping she will now ...... with more people in the future.